Natural born worrier.
I’m a control freak. Everyone who knows me knows it.
I like to have everything running smoothly and if it doesn’t, then I need to be prepared for that. Just planning Joey’s 2nd birthday party had me stressing out, not because anything went wrong but because I was so conscious about whether everyone was OK, whether they had a drink, if they were enjoying it. I ran around like a flapping duck, leaving a trail of worry behind me. But everyone was fine. Everything went well. Would I have enjoyed myself more if I had just stopped stressing? Yes. So why can't I stop stressing?
It's not like I don't realise I'm doing it. Whenever I'm stressed or worrying about something, I tell myself to look at the bigger picture. To stop and breathe. To realise that I'm panicking for no reason. But no matter what my rational voice in my head is trying to tell my brain, the little man with devil horns wins every time.
- I can’t help but feel jealous of people who are naturally laidback and carefree, and I often wish I could delete the bit about me that makes me so wired. But then I wouldn’t be me, right?! -
So what's the answer? Is it mindfulness? Is it deep breathing? Is it yoga? Is it to stop drinking caffeine? Or is there no answer and I have to accept that this is my personality? I'm Julia Sidwell and I am a jittery, anxious person who is and will always be this way.
Of course, I’m not this way all the time, not 24/7. I don't think I'd be able to get out of bed if I were as bad as I'm making out! Of all the vitamins, essential oils, mindful techniques and deep breathing, fun days out with my little chap and other half are the best remedy by far. Just seeing Joey's smile and being in the moment with him is enough to eliminate the little worries and stresses that dance around my busy mind. - Now tell me, am I alone? Or are you a control freak too?! - #controlfreak #worrier #stresshead #masterofmumxiety #mumxiety #mumlife#mumsofinstagram #parenting#motherhood #motherhoodunplugged#toddlerspam #instamum #toddlerlife#toddlersofinstagram #blog#mumblogger #honestparenting#documentingmotherhood #lifeasmama#mumbloggers #mumsofig #igmums#uniteinmotherhood #pbloggersuk#igmotherhood #mummybloggers#mummybloggeruk